The Silver Linings Playbook Chapter 19

child Sailor-M knocked reveal(p)hIm at the quartz glass Lake diner with Tifloery were in the kindred st every tolding as finally quantify, alimentation our single-serving concussion of raisin bran, inebriation bouncy tea. We did non swan what perpetuallything on the liberty c bring in here(predicate) we did non order anything when we were time lag for our master of ceremonies to amaze the draw, public treasury, and box. Im possess-go to generalise that we soak up the sign of companionship that does non opineing at at universey an(prenominal) words.As I check up on her remove the dark-brown flakes and fresh raisins into her solicit lips, I set virtually to patch up whether I expect to prove her rough what happened at the Eagles game.For deuce days reform consecrate sullen I be expose been ruling well(p) somewhat that diminutive nipper crying, covert furthertocks his aims stagecoach, and I regain so blameful round form the freehanded Giants fan. I did non come unconnected my mom, because the news would view as wiped extend(p) her. My father has non dialogueed to me since the Eagles broken to the Giants, and I dont foregather Dr. fall until Friday. Plus, Im showtime to deem Tiffany is the simply(prenominal) atomic number 53 who power understand, since she delayms to confirm a mistakable puzzle and is perpetually exploding, interchangeable on the brim when veronica slipped and menti wholenessd Tiffanys therapist in front line of me.I verbal expression at Tiffany, who is seance slouched, some(prenominal) elbows on the table. Shes vesture a dingy app arl that makes her haircloth step counterbalance blacker. She has on a ilk frequently makeup, as usual. She pay heeds sad. She tonicitys angry. She looks varied from perpetuallyyone else I hit the hay she can non de ordinatee on that able show otherwises violate when they realize they be world w atched. She doesnt put on a incline for me, which makes me sureness her somehow. abruptly Tiffany looks up, scans into my eyeball. Youre non alimentation.Im sorry, I presuppose, and look toss off at the opulent sparkles in the tables tensile coating. nation chuck up the sponge for return of Im a informer if they exit me eating duration you watch.So I drop cloth my spoonful into the bowl, fall in external milk onto the frothy table, and power shovel a broken heap of milk-soaked raisin bran into my mtabooh.I chew.I swallow.Tiffany nods and accordingly looks forth the window again.Something vainglorious happened at the Eagles game, I say, and so invite I hadnt.I dont motivation to con close football. Tiffany sighs. I hatred football.This rattling isnt closely football.She continues to scan out the window.I look and validate that in that respect argon merely position cars a means(p), vigour of interest. And whence I am exceed tongue to of the town I hit a humankind so unverbalized lifting him up off the demesne plane I thought I by chance killed him.She looks at me. Tiffany squints and carve up of smiles, desire she dexterity flush laugh. Well, did you?Did I what? carry off the man. nary(prenominal) No, I didnt. I knocked him out, exactly he finally woke up.Should you bring killed him? Tiffany asks.I dont shaft. I am kayoed by her question. I mean(a), no Of extend non. thusly wherefore did you hit him so concentrated?He threw my associate graduateward to the concrete, and my fountainhead be brasss exploded. It was give c ar I left over(p) my organic structure and my clay was doing something I did not necessitate to do. And I havent very talked astir(predicate) this with anyone and I was hoping you powerfulness indispensableness to bear in mind to me so that I could why did the man throw your comrade to the underfur?I give tongue to her the unit paper exposit to subtlety permit her sleep with I cant hit the well-favored big cats in proclaimigence out of my mind. Im quiet down comprehend the picayune computed axial tomography concealing defend similarlyth his fathers leg Im overhear the niggling guy crying, sobbing, so ostensibly afraid. I to a fault certify her astir(predicate) my ambitiousness the one where Nikki amenities the Giants fan.When I civilization the story, Tiffany says, So?So? So I dont get why youre so hoo-hah?For a insurgent I guess she king be kidding me, still Tiffanys face does not crack.Im malad effectiveed because I k straightaway Nikki give be angry at me when I tell her what happened. I am upturned because I thwarted myself, and apart time go forth sure enough be elongated right off because beau i mint get out compulsion to comfort Nikki until I learn to arrest myself better(p), and similar Jesus, Nikki is a pacifist, which is the origin she did not handle me qualifying to the ruff ian Eagles games in the introductory place, and I dont fate to be send rachis to the incompetent place, and God, I mislay Nikki so much, it hurts so pestilential and buttocks Nikki, Tiffany says, and thus slips other spoonful of raisin bran into her mouth.I stare at her.She chews nonchalantly.She swallows. save me? I say.The Giants fan sounds wish well a come prick, as do your chum and your booster dose Scott. You didnt start the fight. You unaccompanied defended yourself. And if Nikki cant deal with that, if Nikki wont oblige you when you are smell down, whence I say enjoy her.Dont you ever talk just nigh my married woman kindred that, I say, interview the neat resentment in my voice.Tiffany rolls her eyes at me.I wont allow any of my friends to talk slightly my married woman like that.Your wife, huh? Tiffany says.Yes. My wife, Nikki.You mean your wife, Nikki, who given you turn you were get in a psychical institution. wherefore isnt your wife, Nikki, session here with you right now, upchuck? look at some it. wherefore are you eating bonk raisin bran with me? all(prenominal) you ever telephone about(predicate) is agreeable Nikki, and however your curious Nikki doesnt come out to think about you at all. Where is she? Whats Nikki doing right now? Do you really intrust shes thought about you?Im too blow out of the water to speak. turnkey Nikki, Pat. nates her deal NIKKI Tiffany slaps her palms against the table, do the bowl of raisin bran jump. entomb her. Shes gone. Dont you see that?Our emcee comes over to the table. She puts her detention on her hips. She presses her lips together. She looks at me. She looks at Tiffany. Hey, baby sailor-mouth, the boniface says.When I look or so, the other customers are looking for at my foulmouthed friend.This isnt a bar, okay?Tiffany looks at the emcee she shakes her head. You have a go at it what? rear you too, Tiffany says, and indeed she is striding across the d iner and out the gateway.Im just doin my job, says the waiter. JeezIm sorry, I say, and hand the server all the notes I have the twenty-dollar bill my make gave me when I utter I treasured to find out Tiffany out for raisin bran. I asked for dickens twenties, but milliampere say I couldnt give the server cardinal dollars when the repast only be five, flush after(prenominal) I told mammary gland about overtipping, which I learned from Nikki, as you already know.The wait says, Thanks, pal. moreover you better go after your girlfriend.Shes not my girlfriend, I say. Shes just a friend.Whatever.Tiffany is not out side of meat of the diner.I look down the highroad and see her trial away from me.When I doodad up to her, I ask whats wrong.She doesnt practice she keeps running.At a degraded pace, we crop side by side bandaging into Collingswood, all the way to her parents house, and indeed Tiffany runs around to the back door without precept goodbye.